and yet, on second thought.
sometimes this whole blogging thing just makes me more sad than before.

obviously you dont need me to care for you,
more inlightening is that you dont care that i do.
ignored, denied, paid back. fine.

channel my energy and go back to playing lifeless. challenge my emotion to forget that i suffer for you in some part of my heart.
never stopped. but you did.
just like the first time.